Burdens

Okay so someone brought up that all i ever care about is other and never myself.
Which now looking on it is true
In a sence i think i take everyone that i care about and put ther burdens on me..
Like that sounds so stupid but like whenever there sad i think about how they feel
All my thought are consumed with them, and how they feel
And before you know it i feel like crap and helpless
Like i wish i could do something to help them
But i cant im just a stupid 15 year old who cant do anything
I wish my life was like the books... Or Scott Pilgrim or a super hero
Where i could alwase just help everyone out and make them feel better
BUT I CANT!
All i can do is just sit and watch them suffer.
I HATE IT!
Why do i do this though?
Partly because ive been through the things myself
(Speaking as of resent)
But idk.. Just this week has been hectic for me
I think ive had border line mental breakdowns every night
Thats not exagerating.
I just wish i could one just be totally 100% happy
No troubles, no worries, no pains, no scars, no hurt.
Just total and pure happy.
But sad thing is in the world we live in this task is imposible
Oh well... im not just gunna go on a start freaking out and be up super late thing and sulking
I hate doing that.
I just want... To be honest, I dont know what i want... happyness?
For me, for everyone