9/19/10

Ha wow.. Okay, Wow. Today. Ha wow
Okay so resently my self esteem has been really low and ive been super down in the dumps and just beating myself up and letting all the comments and stuff people have said in the past get to me.
And just all these mental break downs thinking how im not good enough or lame or stupid or just not cool
But today for some reason I texted one of my friends that i havnt talked to in a while, Michael and just started complaining about school and how i want to go to Bixby and getting made fun of and how my parents dont get me and all that jazz.
But then he started telling me how good of a kid i was and hes proud of me and stuff.
(I REALLY look up to him so this means allot)
And just how he knows what im going through and that hes there for me and just all around uplifting me.
Then not but 15-30 or so into the converation his girlfriend text me, Abbie and just out of the blue sent me
"Hey. You."
"You're my favorite ;)"
"... You're way to cool haha for real"
*complain complain*
"What the heck?!"
"... I cant imagine anyone not liking you"
Okay last one.
"Kyle. Those kids are so dumb. Im so proud of you. Like i probally havent ever told you cause i dont know how cool it is for some 20 year old who lives at home saying there proud of you. But its true. Your standards make me so happy. Cause i think you deserve the best (Why else would i say i want to marry you?! haha) I just think youre so awesome. Seriously. Like i dont just throw it out there. I really mean it. Youre someone I think a lot of people would be privildged to be part of your like. For real. Youre so cool. All your adeas and your creativiry and youre halarious"
"Im alwase here for you and i know Michael is to. We love you:)"
Like just wow
I really cant describe how much ive been needing this. Just help. Uplifting. Building
Michael:
"Ok Kyle. I love you bro...."
and just saying how hes proud of me and thinks im super cool and how people are stupid for making fun of me
And just how he know what im going through case the sae happend to him. And that hes alwase here if i need someone to talk to and just stuff like that
I dont wanna post all the stuff he put on there cause its my buisness and not yours HA
But just wow. Like i feel just so much better after all this.
I serriously have needed this more then i could of ever immagined.
Im so glad i know these two people.
But gosh God, You picked a wierd day to decide to totally bring me back. Renew me. A reset button persay.
Early today i thought today was gunna suck cause my best friends grandma died. Like i hurts me so much to see other people hurt so that put me in a bad pissed off mood pretty early in the day. So early on my day started sucking.
But then just out of the blue. Wow.
Just i feel so much better after this
Total renewing. THANK YOU SO MUCH Michael and Abbie. I really mean that
Even tho you dont read this. Just thanks
LVL UP!
+15 COURAGE
+10 WILL
+15 POWER :D