So ive been driving for about 4 months give or take now. And when i fist started i was super happy and excited to start driving
I mean who isnt?!
But soon. Verry soon, especially with my parents i started to hate driving
It just sucks. I get yelled at for everyting
Even when i do nothing wrong. Yes i could do some stuff better sometimes but that doesnt mean you have to yell like serriously!
As soon as you yell i instiantly shut down and just stop lisenig
I keep driving but honest i dont know why?
To get better? To seek... finally get your approvial? To hear you say "You did a good job Kyle" For once in my life
Im just sick of getting yelled at for everythng!!!!!
I turned to slow
I turned to fast
I murged to slowily
I murge to fast and jerky
I didnt take your word for it... I thought you said to always double check no matter what
OH YEA and to top it off our car keys always get stuck for me my mom and my brother!!!!
But no never you were all just the screw ups!
I DONT FREAKJING DO ANYTHING WRONG WHEN I TAKE THE KEY OUT!!!!
YOU ALWAYS SEE ME DO IT! ITS EXACTLY LIKE YOU DO!!!
But no, i need to get yelled at about it
-Person with allot of thought but no one to tell them to
Kiyewl
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
Love Sparks
So today ive decided im going to start writing down all my love sparks for that day
10/22/10
Waking up to Caddy spooning with me.
Waking up again to Ian watching Beatles interviews and Caddy playing Megaman.
Seeing how my tye dye shirts came out.
Ian giving me and apple.
Searching for a open donut shop.
Giving up and going to QT at 2:40 for donuts.
Brooklyn randomly showing up at my house.
Seeing Brooklyn's "Now thats a cool story Bro" Tumblr post.
Driving to Pei Wei.
Almost killing everyone in the car.
Playing Pokemon again.
Long phone call with Brooklyn.
Reading Ians blog.
10/22/10
Waking up to Caddy spooning with me.
Waking up again to Ian watching Beatles interviews and Caddy playing Megaman.
Seeing how my tye dye shirts came out.
Ian giving me and apple.
Searching for a open donut shop.
Giving up and going to QT at 2:40 for donuts.
Brooklyn randomly showing up at my house.
Seeing Brooklyn's "Now thats a cool story Bro" Tumblr post.
Driving to Pei Wei.
Almost killing everyone in the car.
Playing Pokemon again.
Long phone call with Brooklyn.
Reading Ians blog.
Okay so im stuck
Okay, so see i want a banjo cause i really want to learn it and im super excited and stuff.
So i get my banjo and instantly start learning "For the Widows in Paradise" And i lean/pratice that for a week or so
Then i get where i can play that song pretty easly, Now what?
Im stuck. Ive started dabbling in learning cripple creak and in my mind i have two thing going through it.
A. This is a clasic banjo song and ill learn it and it will be super cool and it'll help me allot to know it
and then..
B. Okay why am i learning this, its an old banjo song that isnt the style i want to play at all. This seems pointless
So i dont know what to do. I want to learn songs, But i cant learn by ear like Ian
I want to make stuff up, But im not good enough and have no idea what im doing
I dont know what to do, this probally sounds stupid but it bugs me. Allot
I just wish i knew what to pratice, or it was easyer to find stuff for banjo online
Like i ask Ian what to pratice he says chords, so i pratice chords and swiching them and what not but i wanna learn how to PLAY
I ask London where to look, and he says Youtube. IVE SEARCHED THERE SO MUCH AND ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND ANYTHING!!
Mabey im just getting ahead of myself and wanting to be good at banjo without the pratice.
Like i know Ian isnt as good as he is today from not praticing, but im just saying its frustating
I cant find anything online to pratice from or if i do it takes me hours to find then its to late or i dont have the time anymore to learn it
It just kinda sucks.
I alwayse seem to blog when im depresed or in a muff
So i get my banjo and instantly start learning "For the Widows in Paradise" And i lean/pratice that for a week or so
Then i get where i can play that song pretty easly, Now what?
Im stuck. Ive started dabbling in learning cripple creak and in my mind i have two thing going through it.
A. This is a clasic banjo song and ill learn it and it will be super cool and it'll help me allot to know it
and then..
B. Okay why am i learning this, its an old banjo song that isnt the style i want to play at all. This seems pointless
So i dont know what to do. I want to learn songs, But i cant learn by ear like Ian
I want to make stuff up, But im not good enough and have no idea what im doing
I dont know what to do, this probally sounds stupid but it bugs me. Allot
I just wish i knew what to pratice, or it was easyer to find stuff for banjo online
Like i ask Ian what to pratice he says chords, so i pratice chords and swiching them and what not but i wanna learn how to PLAY
I ask London where to look, and he says Youtube. IVE SEARCHED THERE SO MUCH AND ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND ANYTHING!!
Mabey im just getting ahead of myself and wanting to be good at banjo without the pratice.
Like i know Ian isnt as good as he is today from not praticing, but im just saying its frustating
I cant find anything online to pratice from or if i do it takes me hours to find then its to late or i dont have the time anymore to learn it
It just kinda sucks.
I alwayse seem to blog when im depresed or in a muff
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Lessthanthree
This one is just for my own personal self.
"Hey, I need to tell you something. Your are extremely mistake. You're not lame or dumb or annoying or anywhere close to any of these qualities.
You are one of the coolest people I know. Seriously, I love you. I love that you're ALWAYS yourself. Around everyone.
New poeple, Old people, parents, EVERYONE. You're alwase the same Kyle. You know who you are. That's something I struggle with a lot and i look up to you for it. I LOVE that you cant spell. Everyone does. Kyle, Im blessed to know you and even more so to be able to call you one of my best friends. So stop. Stop doubting yourself, because you are amazing."
<3 Thanks so much
That mean more to me than you know
"Hey, I need to tell you something. Your are extremely mistake. You're not lame or dumb or annoying or anywhere close to any of these qualities.
You are one of the coolest people I know. Seriously, I love you. I love that you're ALWAYS yourself. Around everyone.
New poeple, Old people, parents, EVERYONE. You're alwase the same Kyle. You know who you are. That's something I struggle with a lot and i look up to you for it. I LOVE that you cant spell. Everyone does. Kyle, Im blessed to know you and even more so to be able to call you one of my best friends. So stop. Stop doubting yourself, because you are amazing."
<3 Thanks so much
That mean more to me than you know
9/19/10
Ha wow.. Okay, Wow. Today. Ha wow
Okay so resently my self esteem has been really low and ive been super down in the dumps and just beating myself up and letting all the comments and stuff people have said in the past get to me.
And just all these mental break downs thinking how im not good enough or lame or stupid or just not cool
But today for some reason I texted one of my friends that i havnt talked to in a while, Michael and just started complaining about school and how i want to go to Bixby and getting made fun of and how my parents dont get me and all that jazz.
But then he started telling me how good of a kid i was and hes proud of me and stuff.
(I REALLY look up to him so this means allot)
And just how he knows what im going through and that hes there for me and just all around uplifting me.
Then not but 15-30 or so into the converation his girlfriend text me, Abbie and just out of the blue sent me
"Hey. You."
"You're my favorite ;)"
"... You're way to cool haha for real"
*complain complain*
"What the heck?!"
"... I cant imagine anyone not liking you"
Okay last one.
"Kyle. Those kids are so dumb. Im so proud of you. Like i probally havent ever told you cause i dont know how cool it is for some 20 year old who lives at home saying there proud of you. But its true. Your standards make me so happy. Cause i think you deserve the best (Why else would i say i want to marry you?! haha) I just think youre so awesome. Seriously. Like i dont just throw it out there. I really mean it. Youre someone I think a lot of people would be privildged to be part of your like. For real. Youre so cool. All your adeas and your creativiry and youre halarious"
"Im alwase here for you and i know Michael is to. We love you:)"
Like just wow
I really cant describe how much ive been needing this. Just help. Uplifting. Building
Michael:
"Ok Kyle. I love you bro...."
and just saying how hes proud of me and thinks im super cool and how people are stupid for making fun of me
And just how he know what im going through case the sae happend to him. And that hes alwase here if i need someone to talk to and just stuff like that
I dont wanna post all the stuff he put on there cause its my buisness and not yours HA
But just wow. Like i feel just so much better after all this.
I serriously have needed this more then i could of ever immagined.
Im so glad i know these two people.
But gosh God, You picked a wierd day to decide to totally bring me back. Renew me. A reset button persay.
Early today i thought today was gunna suck cause my best friends grandma died. Like i hurts me so much to see other people hurt so that put me in a bad pissed off mood pretty early in the day. So early on my day started sucking.
But then just out of the blue. Wow.
Just i feel so much better after this
Total renewing. THANK YOU SO MUCH Michael and Abbie. I really mean that
Even tho you dont read this. Just thanks
LVL UP!
+15 COURAGE
+10 WILL
+15 POWER :D
Okay so resently my self esteem has been really low and ive been super down in the dumps and just beating myself up and letting all the comments and stuff people have said in the past get to me.
And just all these mental break downs thinking how im not good enough or lame or stupid or just not cool
But today for some reason I texted one of my friends that i havnt talked to in a while, Michael and just started complaining about school and how i want to go to Bixby and getting made fun of and how my parents dont get me and all that jazz.
But then he started telling me how good of a kid i was and hes proud of me and stuff.
(I REALLY look up to him so this means allot)
And just how he knows what im going through and that hes there for me and just all around uplifting me.
Then not but 15-30 or so into the converation his girlfriend text me, Abbie and just out of the blue sent me
"Hey. You."
"You're my favorite ;)"
"... You're way to cool haha for real"
*complain complain*
"What the heck?!"
"... I cant imagine anyone not liking you"
Okay last one.
"Kyle. Those kids are so dumb. Im so proud of you. Like i probally havent ever told you cause i dont know how cool it is for some 20 year old who lives at home saying there proud of you. But its true. Your standards make me so happy. Cause i think you deserve the best (Why else would i say i want to marry you?! haha) I just think youre so awesome. Seriously. Like i dont just throw it out there. I really mean it. Youre someone I think a lot of people would be privildged to be part of your like. For real. Youre so cool. All your adeas and your creativiry and youre halarious"
"Im alwase here for you and i know Michael is to. We love you:)"
Like just wow
I really cant describe how much ive been needing this. Just help. Uplifting. Building
Michael:
"Ok Kyle. I love you bro...."
and just saying how hes proud of me and thinks im super cool and how people are stupid for making fun of me
And just how he know what im going through case the sae happend to him. And that hes alwase here if i need someone to talk to and just stuff like that
I dont wanna post all the stuff he put on there cause its my buisness and not yours HA
But just wow. Like i feel just so much better after all this.
I serriously have needed this more then i could of ever immagined.
Im so glad i know these two people.
But gosh God, You picked a wierd day to decide to totally bring me back. Renew me. A reset button persay.
Early today i thought today was gunna suck cause my best friends grandma died. Like i hurts me so much to see other people hurt so that put me in a bad pissed off mood pretty early in the day. So early on my day started sucking.
But then just out of the blue. Wow.
Just i feel so much better after this
Total renewing. THANK YOU SO MUCH Michael and Abbie. I really mean that
Even tho you dont read this. Just thanks
LVL UP!
+15 COURAGE
+10 WILL
+15 POWER :D
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Fork
Okay so i have this ex, She use to be like super awesome and chill and just normal, But now shes all wierd. For a while i kept in contact with her cause i still liked her even tho she did all this crap to me when we were "dating"
Like she screwed with my head so much, it still effects me to this day
Theres allot more to the story and i dont think i care to blog it as of now.
But in short, whenever she talkes to me my first responce is to reply and say hey and what not.
Like i know that sounds stupid that after all shes done to me i still talk to her/wanna be friends with her?
Or do i? I honestly dont know
And my current best friend doesnt like her at all so then again i feel bad for wanting to stay ish friends with her
I just dont know. Why do you do this to me?
You have like freaking voodo powers!
IDONTKNOWWHATTODO! D:
Im at a fork in the road. Should i just totally disown her? Or stay friends with her and what not?
(ive been friends.... Known her for like 3 mabey 4 years)
I know staying friend with her would make me the bigger person (Would it?) I DONT KNOW!
But then again after all shes done i kinda just wanna disown her. Idk. Poop... whatever
I probally will end up bloging the whole "us" story. Just to see if it helps me at all ya know holms?
Okay yea im lame BYE!
Like she screwed with my head so much, it still effects me to this day
Theres allot more to the story and i dont think i care to blog it as of now.
But in short, whenever she talkes to me my first responce is to reply and say hey and what not.
Like i know that sounds stupid that after all shes done to me i still talk to her/wanna be friends with her?
Or do i? I honestly dont know
And my current best friend doesnt like her at all so then again i feel bad for wanting to stay ish friends with her
I just dont know. Why do you do this to me?
You have like freaking voodo powers!
IDONTKNOWWHATTODO! D:
Im at a fork in the road. Should i just totally disown her? Or stay friends with her and what not?
(ive been friends.... Known her for like 3 mabey 4 years)
I know staying friend with her would make me the bigger person (Would it?) I DONT KNOW!
But then again after all shes done i kinda just wanna disown her. Idk. Poop... whatever
I probally will end up bloging the whole "us" story. Just to see if it helps me at all ya know holms?
Okay yea im lame BYE!
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